Blondie named Atwood, Girl named Amber

I don't even know what to call this or what to write. My minds just kind of like "blah"

It's crazy to think that I've been fine lately, but I don't know, I just woke up today and felt this way lol. I'm sure its nothing, and I'll be find...ugh I don't even know.

It's kind of hard to explain and hard to process myself. Confusion, regret, frustration, anger, sympathy, selfless, sad, mad...and then at some point, there's nothing.

I don't even know what's going on in my head right now. It's all to overwhelming and just...

I seriously need to go somewhere lol...with friends or alone. Doesn't matter

I usually dont ramble like this, but I had to get it out.

Honestly, I never open up to anyone. It's easier to put up walls so you don't get hurt, and so people don't disappoint you. Lately my walls have gone down just a tad with a few people, and moreso with someone who I'd never even known before this SoGoProtastic idea came to reality

So frustrating when all I do is ramble on and on about nothing important to all of you guys lol.

Im currently listening to "Time is Running Out" by Muse and "Already Gone" by Crossfade. So I don't know what those songs are supposed to mean. Like Kim said in her vlog last night, music is a big part of her life, and it's the same for me. Always has been. I listen to a lot of music and there are always some songs that stick with you forever, or remind you of something or someone, and it's always going to be that way. Don't ask me why lol because I don't know the answer, but it's gonna be like that. We can't change what we like, or who we like, or what happens if we don't like it, or if it's unexpected, but we need to learn to embrace it with open arms, because you never know when it's going to come back or even IF it will come back.

Don't take things for granted.

Don't take yourself for granted.

Just be you.

That's always best.


~ A