Independent.

Ok so this "cohencides" (the o.c. joke lol) with my others post, interior/exterior from a few days ago.

Well, some of my friends came back from college for Spring Break, and we sorta had a little reunion. It was my group from my freshman year in high school. After that year, we all sort of split up...some with the dancers, some with the drama club, some with the football team, and I with the basketball team. Anyway, we all got together...you'd think it would be awesome right? Totally normal and relaxed? I thought so too, but I was wrong.

Of course I was happy to see all of them, and it was great to catch up, but something was missing. At first I couldn't figure it out. Then I noticed halfway through the day was that we all seemed so different yet the same still. Part of it was all the college talk. Dorms, parties, drinking, frats, sororities, etc. I felt somewhat left out since I commmute to school ad there are no dorms or parties.

Then I was talking to Kim a night or 2 after and it just hit me. Based on the "inside/outside" post I put up before, I relied on my friends. Trusted them with my life. They practically were my lifeline. They still are in a sense, but not in the sense you'd think. I figured out that I didn't need them like before. As much. I didn't have to depend on them like before. I mean you all know by now how much I care about friends and all that, but I finally became my OWN person. Friends will always be part of me, they are all that I am along with my family.

"Family isn't blood. It's love"

At the beginning of the year, I continued to be paranoid and afraid of life. I thought I wouldn't be able to handle going to school or being without friends. Seeing them everyday to NOT seeing them for months takes its toll. But getting involved with SGP has really helped me. I mean I've met all of you wonderful people in a matter of months, weeks, days, and minutes and I know you'll always be here for me, vice versa, and we ALL will be here for this company. This company is strong and stable...and that's how I'm starting to see myself. Nothing like the broken, lost, confused, and unbalanced girl from high school.

I was no longer Amber Rivera, the girl who played basketball in High School, or Amber who went to Don Lugo High School. I became Amber Rivera...aspiring video editor.

Just Amber.

Independent.

Caring.

Reliable.

Trusting.

Me.

~ A